My 20th high school reunion is coming.  I’m having a planning session tomorrow night.  I’m finding this very difficult to do.  First, 20 years!  Good night.  How did I get to be nearly 40?  Where did all that time go?  Second, I am very unsettled with high school. I just made so many stupid decisions.  I traded the truth for a lie time after time.  All people know is this person I pretended to be.  It’s almost like showing up as a stranger to a room full of familiar faces.  It’s been good to hear from people and catch up with where they are, but I face it with regret like I need to say I’m sorry to the whole crew.  Then there is the fact that my best friend was in the grade under me.  But we had a big falling out that I never have understood and he doesn’t speak to me and those were my main high school memories.  Why do I want to live that again?  There is just so much regret.  I hope that all these people are content.  I really hope that.  I hope everyone can come in and find those old friendships.  I don’t want people to come in arrogantly with the success they’ve had and I don’t want people to be ashamed by what they don’t have.  I just want us to come together as the close class that we were.  Perhaps it will be better than think.  I just don’t want to be fake again.